I am a very lucky woman – my husband and I have chemistry. Oh the sparks fly between us. We had chemistry when we met, but it was pretty basic elementary school kind of science chemistry. As we have gotten to know one another, that chemistry has grown. I am pretty sure we are reaching Nobel prize type chemistry now!
So here’s the deal. We communicate. We talk about sex, a lot. We text about sex, a lot. We have sex when the opportunity arises. (We share our home with my daughter, so now we aren’t running around the house naked – well, not all the time!) Sex isn’t all we talk about but when we talk about sex, we are flirting. We are teasing and enticing each other. It’s an important part of our relationship. It keeps us connected. We act like teenagers at times, barely getting enough of each other.
And then I start to over think things. Why question a good thing? We have been together for 5 years now. Married for almost a year. We have been living together for over 3 years – so yes we have experienced life, stress, kids, jobs etc. Our schedules don’t always match up and we barely see each other some days. Yet, our chemistry is solid. Back to me over thinking…I did that. I thought about it too much, questioned how we seem to be focused on sex a lot. I shared that with my husband and he was surprised at my comment. As a result, he is pulled back the sexual content of our relationship. We have gone from a X rated, to completely G rated – ALL THE TIME.
So again I am thinking, likely over thinking, and here’s what I have come up with. Sex is part of relationships. No its NOT the most important thing but its a big deal. What I love about our conversations, flirting, teasing is how I feel. I am alive. I feel sexy. I am wanted and desired. I can’t wait to have sex with my husband. It’s hot. It’s consuming and the best sex of my life. My relationship experience has taught me that when we disconnect – things go wrong. When a couple isn’t interested in one another, they drift. Love is emotional and physical. Humans need touch. From innocent hugs to full body skin-on-skin contact. We NEED that. I love that look on his face when I have shocked him, teased him and turned the heat up. I love that he can’t get enough of me, like I can’t get enough of him.
Every relationship is different. We have both been married. We have both been widowed. We have both experienced relationships that didn’t work. Disconnection, separate lives, sex was a task on the to do list because it was expected. We both know that is not where we want to go again. Fortunately we have not experienced that in our relationship. Denying our chemistry is not helping our relationship. It’s natural. It’s welcoming. Chemistry is part of nature – why deny what feels so good.